without eason's day 43

today is chris leave to London a week time. i miss him badly. act i dun remember when i din miss him badly.. last nite? when i the time i chat to him? i pretend he stil at pg jz we dun see other. but in the end i fail. even fail to lie to myself.
and the funny thing is, i just remember i dun even ask which part of london he stay and what school he study. and he asked why i wana ask. wat a question answer by another question. i guess he is PMS again. i try to ignore my feeling abt in the end i feel empty. act he not really improtant in my daily life compare to eason as we din talk much. but how come i feel there are sth missing in my heart ?
i hv no place to go.

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突然好想你
deleting iphone pixx and see all our nice picture, happy lululemon moment

Without Eason's day 18

the 18th days. in the 18th 12.00 am, i really miss you badly.

and until nite time only knw you back. and i called you twice you din pick up. at first i tot you stil at kl. din knw you back. dun even hv a chance to meet you. anyway, wats the purpose i knw you back if i din get to meet you.
well, we stil like last time, always watsapp each other. from the first day til 18th, so far i stil knw wat you doing.. you doing great. and you knw wat i doing, wat happen on me too.

okay. i not going to ask you out, if you miss me, you will look for me. and i shall continue do sweet things for chris. appreciate the person who around.

命里有时终须有，命里无时莫强求

Without Eason's day 14

The 14th day. Is valentine's day. Went to jump cause miss you so much. Such a happy nite cause get your watsapp when I about watsapp you, to ask how's your step class. Alone at China house again. Think abt you..... All small small memories... Mmm... I very happy get to share abt your story n your work at kl. at least I knw you doing good, happy for you :) Happy valentine's day. Hope you like the your valentine's gift 💗

Without Eason's day 10

What a hot day! I really can not stand on it!! Almost fall sick, going.. Soon I guess. Go buy aloe vela and think abt you. Feel so hungry b4 step so walk to Xuan Xin buy food. N I rmb we went b4 once in a blue moon b4 Monday step :) Sit on the stage n I think abt you. I miss you!! I miss you so much !! Abt to tear again but tell myself shouldn't tear .... Hope you were here with me, hv me feed back

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Without Eason's day 4

At china house. Your gang is here. Babe n Chris is here. Some how I feel my heart is one piece is missing. Date babe few time for his bday.. Since month ago. Out of sudden think of, why I make myself so diffecult. Step n all of this... I don't knw how to keep connect with you. Unless you look for me, how many times will you do that. Soon, soonner.. We will lost contact. I try to be diva, i got the feel that I'm gona become your shadow..... I like live under your shadow... Mm.. Today teach 5 n 6 again. Worst than ytd. Nw, I really not interested at other things. All i wan is fix my step, fix my tech ..

without eason day 3

today went to office early too. saw josten's pix n feel wana eat hokkien mee but on the way back saw her post at your wall n she change to the pix wif you. im full. thats all.
dont like she always force me to teach and remind me everyday. but if jz follow her style to teach, teach in her way, act 10 tracks is very easy as i find she coaching not more info inside. anyway, i shouldnt compare wif her, cz i won get to improve.

chris. recently can see he put lots of effort to teach me, gv me feed back. i some more got home work. a bit touch, since when he so nice to me... hehe.. but i dint mean he bad to me all this time. and i feel glad tat hv josten support me on floor. and i act feel secure when tt wif chris. still.. i remember everthing single things to you told me. i shall work harder =)

without eason's day 2

last nite din sleep well, but still manage wake up in the same time. But tis morning i felt so boring. Thursday morning, 9 o'clock i was siting in my office. 10 o'clock. still doing the same thing. very weird. i miss the thursday morning step wif you and lunch together. lunch wif you always fun although not many time i get to lunch wif you. still. i miss you.

i found out i can ignore the feeling. ignore i miss you badly. but when i watch 86, i knw i really cant help. i can ignore every single moment but my heart knw. i so so so wana go your thurday nite's step. i hope i can be there watching you and kenny doing step. the two person who brought me here.

dont knw why i feel so tired and i found out its so hardly to get me smile when i on stage. or i should said all the day. i dun feel wan to smile cause there is nothing for me to smile. some how im asking myself, since when you become so important to me. i had no idea at all.

okay. im sorry. today very lazy. low progress! was sleeping when you watsapp me tat you done first TT wif kenny. your watsapp awake me. sweet. my finger was touching iphone when i fall asleep n amazing i was awake by the vibration.

have to sleep now. hoping tmr can wake up and prepare for track 6. tmr muz teach two tracks. feel bad! suppore practice by tonite but i dun feel doing anything. why? 

without eason day 1

today, wake up on time and went to office very early. as i promise, i gona be a good gal work harder in everything. suppose to teach two track in baby's class but last nite lack of time to prepare. Anyway, i had talk to david. think abt the things you told me before. if i really wan to teach, i have to show ppl that i really want. so now, prepare for the coaching and ready for friday. not stress but enjoy.
and i can tell you, i start get the feeling stand on the stage, and i love it =)

saw a S40 out side the gym, but the plate number not same anymore!! haha!! i smile to myself. i have to get use. is a bit funny the moment i saw the car as i was telling myself impossible :) at least im awake and dint hoping for any stupid hope :)
i smile to myself, i started get use. move on one step :)

Last day of January

Your last morning in Penang. Suppose wif you at your house but in the end I'm not. Through can spend last morning with you with a peaseful way, but in the end still nop. Don't knw since when you look me in this way, a bit similar with Chris but I so tired to explain. Let it be. Out destant only 85 meter... So close.. Yet so far.. I cant reach you at all. And after today, our destant will become 300++ km... But Wat the different if I dun even touch your heart. Just a little bit. Just because I'm girl? Cause you gay? Or you realize I hd too much feel on you? I don't even knw how much and how deep I fall. It is not important. We going to become two world ppl. Can't imagine when you go down kl, what your world going to be. Ask myself, trying so harder not to tear but stil... Think abt mi's song.. How to cry.. Really suit me.sigh. After today. Tomorrow will be a new chapter for you, for me too. Best luck to you.